uncertanty settles in to my grey cloud i thought had gone away
but it huddles there
after trying to decorate my egg before it was hatched
i've realized i'd better be aware of what life might come
putting down the paint brush
and studing the canvas
i see another lesson is learned
'clouds may cover the sunshine
but they cannot banish the sun'
and thus i shine

struggling in silence
cant bring myself to comment
falling into wonder
straight into puddles of heart tears
from friendships on hold
i dont know how to handle it
i cannot pass your test
its not funny to me
and you know it
but you push it in my face
i do not know this war cry
so i play dead until its over

fill out my pants
charge my phone in my car
answer the phone is stupid tones
avoided confrontation
i didn't mean to forget
want to go back and apologize
want to savor the hope
of family love

we can die young
we can live in drama
we can hurt ourselves
we can move on
we can grow
we can be a better us

i accept that i can not walk all paths
i accept not all paths will entwine with mine
i choose my path
i choose life
today i am grateful
tomorrow, too

im attepting to scrape some sence
onto a canvas more complicated than the lead chips on it